Go, gone, Vanish.

life moves on...
That's it.
These were her last words. And suddenly a bike rides over me and vanishes. But I am still getting calls, and I try my first flight from the top of my company's building... And lo! I can fly. Awesome...but a drop of tear still falls ... Making its way to the earth's flatness.
Aah...my hand senses something wet. That drop of tear it is...and I realize am awake.

Huh? Dreams I must say actually are like flying horses.
Some try to interpret them, some just forget. I do neither. Just remember them and pat my subconscious mind for such great imagination.
But melancholy is the flavor of the day. A near and dear, who is valued the most if hurts doesn't realize what or how huge could be the impact. Emotions are priceless, and so a rare found possession. But the reason been given for their scarcity is not that they are priceless but that they are useless!
Emotions should never overflow-accepted. BUT should nevertheless be valued.
Haa, look who's talking of emotions! I remember the reply to a mail of mine from my ex-crush's boyfriend, it said: 'karun to misunderstand, you should have understanding first.' Though all these years I wasn't in agreement to this statement but today I realize: how true! I haven't ever been able to understand others.All these years(7+ years) I wasn't , BUT today I find no opinion wrong.

But the result of all this...
The dreams of mine...so restless, painful and also sometimes eye watering.
The solution to all this is nothing but to live as much as possible in oblivion. I know that that would again not leave people quiet, but they would now say am being a coward or I should not give up on life. Again they are the same people... Realization that am a failure in personal relationship management (even a counselor confirmed this ;-) ), because I always am on the extremes of sharing emotions in a relation is late but worthy, but no self-pity or sympathy intended or expected here(dunno why people misinterpret my statements)... AND SO I DO QUIT.
Its ok to accept cowardice as a quality. C'mon until when should we just keep bothering about
What Would People Think or Say?

Keep d faith...
Karun.

TERE LIYE...JHOOMUN DIWANA BANKE.

Yes...by heaven's grace I am back in the mood to put across my feelings( MY feelings) again.
And what is it that keeps me occupied most of the time? The song which goes like - Tere liye...
Why?
I don't know why the fixation to this song, but should every like or dislike have a reason... naah!
A feeling ... a drive...a force that puts me on the track of LIFE. That's what thrills me these days. A great force indeed. Is my wait over?

Lakshya-that's the word.

Lakshya-Goal
Words that mean a lot in one's life and have often been the topic of discussion in many of my posts.
But why do I write so much about it? Is it because my exposure to the world and education has given me the foresight and understanding of it? I would like to question this reason.
A downtrodden farmer sick of the injustice and tyranny of the village landlords also sets up a goal- to kill them, this lakshya* of his shapes his career to become a rebel (Robin-Hood kinds). Now that didn't need education from books but surely learnings from life.
For a 10yr old Saikarun, the lakshya was to stand first in the class every year ...(joking, I was happy being in the top ten list, that alone saved me my honor) But it was surely important for this 10yr old to master his dance act on stage all those years until he was 17. And believe me that goal was surely very rewarding and gave him a lot of satisfaction with Life.
I remember another person whose goal in life was to make his family laugh.
Interesting isn't it?
These are people who work to live and not live to work. And that my friend is the mantra for you to be happy and satisfied with (not in) your life.

So who's joining me for my next Lakshya/Goal to master photography skills...?

Keep d faith...
Karun.

*Lakshya-goal.