A boy always in his own world...BUT loves family...though always scared of the outer world. FEAR...a constant companion at home or out. ANXIETY a constant visitor...BUT has a lot of value for LOVE...though is so much used to ANXIETY that feels it does good to him and helps in achieving what he aims at , be it studies , sports or anything.
Sufferings of people does bring a tear or two, BUT he loves all equally, he does everything possible to support the weakling but his heart is still in his own world.
Its a strange but very interesting relation he shares with the world outside. He is attached to all who he need be attached to but still has some distance from the world.
Many find this distance to be his selfishness, many find him to be insane, others just don't bother about him saying he is a gone case.
The chapters of his life seem to be normal though many a times quite interesting.
There is FEAR as mentioned earlier...LOVE...FRIENDS...and all that fills LIFE.
A chapter is going to end soon, and he knows he has to MOVE ON.
CHANGE is truly constant in his life...
So he chooses to live...
Keep d faith...
Karun.
Wednesday, 22 July 2009
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
Aaj ka arjun - d sequel
Continuing on the same topic of my previous post, this is just an extension.
I received a comment rather question on the post from a reader, who am thankful to have called herself a fan of this blog. I appreciate that.
Her comment I am pasting here for all to read:
Before answering the question, I wish to let know all, that whatever my previous post speaks of , the reason of discontent or unhappiness is not something about GOALS and TARGETS that one can't achieve by putting in some efforts.
Else this post would have contradicted one of my earlier one- 'Choone hai ...'
This post speaks and stresses more on the point of living in the moment.
My examples are of situation/circumstances which are not controlled by humans or are situations where there is constant unrest in one's mind and a confusion about what one wants.
1. Like by just wishing that I become a 5 yr old again to get rid of my problems in life is not going to make me a 5 yr old, so the point is Y should I be unhappy then?
I cannot put in efforts that will make me a 5 yr old again, if I could then would have definately done so( there lies the answer to your question Ms.reader)
2. I want to become a celebrity, be very popular mobbed by fans...and I work hard for it, I have to, its a GOAL( your answer Ms.reader). Fine go ahead, achieve, it will keep you alive. But after you have why do you complain of not getting even a single moment of privacy or ignorance? That's my point here.
Coming back to the answer to the question asked by the reader:
Not having a GOAL in life is like not having a life.
There should always be a GOAL at different stages in LIFE to keep one feel alive.
The post never spoke of not having such goals.
Also, make sure that in this materialistic world your GOALS are not purely materialistic. GOALS should be such that 1st they bring a growth in you( growth of the mind , something that helps you bring more peace, more knowledge of all the things in the world)
2nd your GOALS not only benefit you but your family and society.
Don't set GOALS which would only and only bring you materialistic benefits. Materialistic benefits should always and will always come if your primary GOALS specified above are achieved; Coz they are by products of your achievements in LIFE.
So be mature and intelligent...
To know the difference between your wants and needs.
Keep d faith...
Karun.
I received a comment rather question on the post from a reader, who am thankful to have called herself a fan of this blog. I appreciate that.
Her comment I am pasting here for all to read:
I appreciate what you have to say about striking balance, makes sense. Infact as an ardent fan of ur blog, I would like to ask you "Is it wrong to wish for things we do not have?", " Isn't it this longing that makes us work hard to get/achieve what we don't have but would like to have?". I would really like to have your opinion on this one too...cheers!
Before answering the question, I wish to let know all, that whatever my previous post speaks of , the reason of discontent or unhappiness is not something about GOALS and TARGETS that one can't achieve by putting in some efforts.
Else this post would have contradicted one of my earlier one- 'Choone hai ...'
This post speaks and stresses more on the point of living in the moment.
My examples are of situation/circumstances which are not controlled by humans or are situations where there is constant unrest in one's mind and a confusion about what one wants.
1. Like by just wishing that I become a 5 yr old again to get rid of my problems in life is not going to make me a 5 yr old, so the point is Y should I be unhappy then?
I cannot put in efforts that will make me a 5 yr old again, if I could then would have definately done so( there lies the answer to your question Ms.reader)
2. I want to become a celebrity, be very popular mobbed by fans...and I work hard for it, I have to, its a GOAL( your answer Ms.reader). Fine go ahead, achieve, it will keep you alive. But after you have why do you complain of not getting even a single moment of privacy or ignorance? That's my point here.
Coming back to the answer to the question asked by the reader:
Not having a GOAL in life is like not having a life.
There should always be a GOAL at different stages in LIFE to keep one feel alive.
The post never spoke of not having such goals.
Also, make sure that in this materialistic world your GOALS are not purely materialistic. GOALS should be such that 1st they bring a growth in you( growth of the mind , something that helps you bring more peace, more knowledge of all the things in the world)
2nd your GOALS not only benefit you but your family and society.
Don't set GOALS which would only and only bring you materialistic benefits. Materialistic benefits should always and will always come if your primary GOALS specified above are achieved; Coz they are by products of your achievements in LIFE.
So be mature and intelligent...
To know the difference between your wants and needs.
Keep d faith...
Karun.
Tuesday, 7 July 2009
aaj ka arjun- a title for this post ? Y not!
The mere essence of life sometimes seems missing in me. In many for that matter. A million or more people in this state are not happy today for one or the other reason.
'Happiness is synonymous to contentment said one ' But why are we consistently not content?
A child looks at adults and yearns to be one soon.
An adult many a times tired of the day to day problems feels how good it would be to become a child again and be completely taken care of adults.
A married woman longs a child.
A bachelor/spinster some or the other time longs for a partner.
A loner longs for company.
A public figure/celebrity longs for some private moments.
We always want what we do not have at that point of time, when we are alone we want company, when we have company we feel we should be left alone for a while...
LIFE or HAPPINESS is not synonymous to contentment but definately BALANCE.
Is this all looking a bunch of messed up sentences?
Yeah, maybe. So maybe I need to sort myself out....
Keep d faith...
Karun.
'Happiness is synonymous to contentment said one ' But why are we consistently not content?
A child looks at adults and yearns to be one soon.
An adult many a times tired of the day to day problems feels how good it would be to become a child again and be completely taken care of adults.
A married woman longs a child.
A bachelor/spinster some or the other time longs for a partner.
A loner longs for company.
A public figure/celebrity longs for some private moments.
We always want what we do not have at that point of time, when we are alone we want company, when we have company we feel we should be left alone for a while...
LIFE or HAPPINESS is not synonymous to contentment but definately BALANCE.
Is this all looking a bunch of messed up sentences?
Yeah, maybe. So maybe I need to sort myself out....
Keep d faith...
Karun.
Thursday, 2 July 2009
Rains...trains and me.
An hourly wait at a remote station for the train. Most tracks jammed due to the rains.
Am I frustrated, troubled or worried? No, never, I aint those kinda people.
Let the train take its time, its infact a blessing in disguise.
So much to do until then!!! Rains, greenery around, a hot cup of tea and some snack- vada paav preferably. Wow! Do u think u need anything else in life???
Watching others waiting... people who are complete strangers but yet are one amongst us....maybe because they too are Indians. Yes, this is a big reason, whose importance one only realizes when in a similar situation but abroad.
Anyway coming back to my ordinary indian railway station of this small town... even the faint stink of excreta on the tracks does speak of its rights to be there...Thats India!
The train is still to come and the sun is slowly setting. Somewhere nearby a family is trying to adjust the luggage so that they could spend a few hours relaxing like me. There is the head of the family, a forty-eight year old uncle?(hmmm, ok) and his wife who used to be the ever so slim and beautiful lady is now the mother of two teens, and maybe not that slim. Anyway, father instructing children to sit with their mom...and suddenly changing minds to take the son and go to fetch some idli-chutney and coffee for the evening snacks.
A bachelor at another corner checking the reservation chart to find his name...many a times even if we are having a confirmed ticket, to see our name on the reservation chart gives us some kind of superior complex/thrill and pride, feels as if we are telling the rest of the people checking the chart 'Look: No one can steal that berth from me now, its officially on the charts now on this very platform on the day of my travel. I own 1/72th of the bogie now!'
So, wasn't the status on the TICKET official?
But its sweet.
Aah, maybe I should have another cup of tea, I mean please look at the scenic beauty around, it just rained, the smell of the wet mud and the sun slowly bidding bye for the day leaving the sky a little red. Wow, this definately demands a tea.
Wait, did you hear that announcement? Yes, the train seems to have got stuck somewhere and is delayed by two more hours. I ask myself: is it still a blessing in disguise?
No, my answer is still not negative. I am happy.
The journey as it is, is going to take 30 hrs; Am not a business tycoon or a very busy man, have already kept a day as a buffer before resuming work.So, I can enjoy the journey and the waiting. Don't you think in any other possibility- a cab to the nearest airport would have been my choice? Some plus points of being just an engineer and not a manager etc.
So what to do in the next two hours? Its already getting dark.
C'mon Sai, out with that book you had dumped in your bag thinkin one day you would complete it.
Sitting on one of the chairs in this surprisingly well lit waiting hall is not that uncomfortable. Oh, that family too is in, certainly gonna give me company in the train too! And...whats this hustle bustle all about? Some 'goods train' entering the platform. Anyway, I am back reading my book.
Bravo, I have managed to read through half of the book. Khaled Hosseini definately needs a mention here for such a simple story that could otherwise never touch my heart. Well, this is about his book- The Kite Runner. For those interested in simple yet soul stirring art, this book is surely worth a read.
A half an hour left and time for me to get done with dinner. The station is already deserted, its great to see those oil lit lanterns on the streets of the town.
Mr.Chief Minister, you have some work left here!
The canteen boy has just served me some chapatis and chicken masala curry.
And no sooner did he serve have I managed to gulp down that last morsel too! Keeping a chicken already cooked wait for long...Not my way!
Back to the waiting hall, collect my bag and move to the platform. That was the plan. And I was successful executing it too!!!
Jokes apart, here I am on the platform again and as I take the last sip of this typical indian railway station chai*( Doodh kam paani zyaada***), the strikingly bright headlight of my train's engine seems to ignite the tracks.
Atleast my Bye bye is heard and doesn't get lost in this engine's whistle.
Bon Voyage!
Keep d faith...
Karun.
* tea in hindi
*** less milk, more water.
Am I frustrated, troubled or worried? No, never, I aint those kinda people.
Let the train take its time, its infact a blessing in disguise.
So much to do until then!!! Rains, greenery around, a hot cup of tea and some snack- vada paav preferably. Wow! Do u think u need anything else in life???
Watching others waiting... people who are complete strangers but yet are one amongst us....maybe because they too are Indians. Yes, this is a big reason, whose importance one only realizes when in a similar situation but abroad.
Anyway coming back to my ordinary indian railway station of this small town... even the faint stink of excreta on the tracks does speak of its rights to be there...Thats India!
The train is still to come and the sun is slowly setting. Somewhere nearby a family is trying to adjust the luggage so that they could spend a few hours relaxing like me. There is the head of the family, a forty-eight year old uncle?(hmmm, ok) and his wife who used to be the ever so slim and beautiful lady is now the mother of two teens, and maybe not that slim. Anyway, father instructing children to sit with their mom...and suddenly changing minds to take the son and go to fetch some idli-chutney and coffee for the evening snacks.
A bachelor at another corner checking the reservation chart to find his name...many a times even if we are having a confirmed ticket, to see our name on the reservation chart gives us some kind of superior complex/thrill and pride, feels as if we are telling the rest of the people checking the chart 'Look: No one can steal that berth from me now, its officially on the charts now on this very platform on the day of my travel. I own 1/72th of the bogie now!'
So, wasn't the status on the TICKET official?
But its sweet.
Aah, maybe I should have another cup of tea, I mean please look at the scenic beauty around, it just rained, the smell of the wet mud and the sun slowly bidding bye for the day leaving the sky a little red. Wow, this definately demands a tea.
Wait, did you hear that announcement? Yes, the train seems to have got stuck somewhere and is delayed by two more hours. I ask myself: is it still a blessing in disguise?
No, my answer is still not negative. I am happy.
The journey as it is, is going to take 30 hrs; Am not a business tycoon or a very busy man, have already kept a day as a buffer before resuming work.So, I can enjoy the journey and the waiting. Don't you think in any other possibility- a cab to the nearest airport would have been my choice? Some plus points of being just an engineer and not a manager etc.
So what to do in the next two hours? Its already getting dark.
C'mon Sai, out with that book you had dumped in your bag thinkin one day you would complete it.
Sitting on one of the chairs in this surprisingly well lit waiting hall is not that uncomfortable. Oh, that family too is in, certainly gonna give me company in the train too! And...whats this hustle bustle all about? Some 'goods train' entering the platform. Anyway, I am back reading my book.
Bravo, I have managed to read through half of the book. Khaled Hosseini definately needs a mention here for such a simple story that could otherwise never touch my heart. Well, this is about his book- The Kite Runner. For those interested in simple yet soul stirring art, this book is surely worth a read.
A half an hour left and time for me to get done with dinner. The station is already deserted, its great to see those oil lit lanterns on the streets of the town.
Mr.Chief Minister, you have some work left here!
The canteen boy has just served me some chapatis and chicken masala curry.
And no sooner did he serve have I managed to gulp down that last morsel too! Keeping a chicken already cooked wait for long...Not my way!
Back to the waiting hall, collect my bag and move to the platform. That was the plan. And I was successful executing it too!!!
Jokes apart, here I am on the platform again and as I take the last sip of this typical indian railway station chai*( Doodh kam paani zyaada***), the strikingly bright headlight of my train's engine seems to ignite the tracks.
Atleast my Bye bye is heard and doesn't get lost in this engine's whistle.
Bon Voyage!
Keep d faith...
Karun.
* tea in hindi
*** less milk, more water.
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